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[29 Nov 2010|09:36pm] |
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I'm the idiot to your poetry
When you burn you bleach
Everything and all I need
Is at your feet
Work. Is just.
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I'm thinking about quitting.
Christmas soon.
I melt in the kiss by the words and the whispers you sing me
I'm frail in the kill by submission and will that you bring me
It's the shining of you that just breaks me in two like a lifeline
You're my lifeline
( Private to Alfie )
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[03 Oct 2010|12:22am] |
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Okay, so I work weird hours - when I get out the shops are usually closed, if I ever actually get home at all.
And I don't get home very often, not even for the important things, especially not for the important things, which is why I missed Alfie's birthday.
Babe, I'm so sorry. I love you; I know you know that. I hope you love the present I finally managed to get for you too - don't ask how I got the new broom, just know that I did it for you. I hope you can use it sometime soon and I hope I get to see you do it. It's not worth missing your birthday to get the cash but it is worth getting the cash to get you something that'll make you happy; just wish I could see you fly it for the first time.
I kiss you goodbye when I go to work and you're still sleeping. Somtimes I think I can feel you carry me to bed when I finally get in late. It feels like a dream. I dream that I wake up to you and you're gorgeous face and you speak to me and we kiss. I curl back up into you and I fall asleep somehow again. How do I fall asleep again when you're already a dream?
You're the sweetest dream and you're real.
You're the sweetest dream and a waking moment.
And yet somehow I belong to you.
See you soon.
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[01 Sep 2010|07:38am] |
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Dear World,
I am the worst boyfriend ever
That is all.
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[09 Aug 2010|04:45pm] |
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Private
Ugh, not feeling too well... I was doing okay until boss-man made me take a break and then I realise I've come over all dizzy and hot and blah. My voice is a bit off as well, but I'm holding onto the fact that my throat isn't hurting and I don't seem to be feverish - probably just need a nap or something, maybe a bit of a cold too. Blah.
Won't worry Alfers with it though
/Private
Sometimes, not being able to talk about work sucks.
Oh, Ellie, I kind of made found something for you for your daycare project. First off, do you know what a fuse is?
Alfie
Hey gorgeous,
Something's come up at work so I don't know if I'll be able to get home for the next couple of nights. Thinking about getting some time off after that though, do you think you could do the same? I'm okay to wait if you can't, I know you've just started and all.
Hey... I love you. I miss you.
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[13 Jul 2010|09:10pm] |
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I like my job but I hate long hours. I can't even remember what day it's supposed to be, but I know it feels like I haven't seen Alf in more than a week.
Wanna go home now.
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[18 Jun 2010|11:10pm] |
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Merlin, what a day. Or evening. Night, whatever, what time is it now?
... ugh.
All I want to do now is get home and curl up in bed with my boy.
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[26 Apr 2010|08:17pm] |
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Hey Alfie
You're okay, right? Everything's changing
You're still wearing the charm I made you, yeah? I don't know what I'd do if something happened to you. I'd always come to your rescue
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[05 Apr 2010|01:53am] |
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Fuck, fuck, fuck Quidditch!
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[20 Feb 2010|06:50pm] |
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I got lost in genealogy for three days... I don't know what I want more now; food, a shower or bed.
I didn't even notice the kissing going on, but I have to say, who cares? Really? Just because you don't want to see it doesn't mean people who have affection for each other should have to hide it unless it's their choice.
Bed I think.
[Private; visible to Alfie]
I'm stupid for getting caught up in things that don't mean anything, especially with all that's going on going on...
I suppose I'm just bad at coping. They don't teach you how to do that at school.
That big Slytherin in 7th year, the one who hangs around with that haughty blond kid, has been looking at me a lot lately in a funny kind of way... can't say it makes me too comfortable, but then I always have the library or the owlery or the 'room'.
[Private to Alfie]
I used my Valentines present. Thank you.
I did think about you a lot this week.
[/Private]
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[13 Jan 2010|11:10pm] |
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[Hexed Private]
My parents are splitting up. My mum doesn't want to see me anymore. And now Dad says he's moving back to the Muggle world but he doesn't want me leaving Hogwarts because my mum's made it too dangerous for me after she told the Ministry I stole her magic and they actually believed her.
I kind of want to-
[/Hex]
[Hexed Private to Alfie]
Hey, how are you holding up? has anything happene
I miss your touch. I miss touching you. Do you want to meet up?
[/Hex]
[Hexed to WWW]
I need Daydream Charms really bad for a project for school, but I don't have the money right now. Is there some way around that?
Thank you
[/Hex]
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[02 Jan 2010|02:24am] |
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[Private but readable by Alfie]
I knew that mum didn't like me very much, but this sounds like she hates me...
She's going on about magic and theft and blood and all this. I don't even know what to think anymore, but Dad says that things are becoming difficult at home... I don't know how this is going to end but I've got a bad feeling...
[Private]
but at least there's Alfie... I don't know if I can cope with the way I'm starting to feel about him, but with him around I can feel I can cope with this.
[/private]
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[24 Oct 2009|09:10pm] |
[Private to Alfie]
Hey, I read the paper...
Is your dad okay? Are you?
Let me know, please. I'm worried
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[05 Sep 2009|08:59pm] |
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somebody to love - jefferson airplane |
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I managed to get most of the books I wanted out of the library so I can start studying them for class... is it still too early to have a look at specimen test papers?
[Private to WWW]
Uhm... hi. I don't know who in your company deals with manufacturing the Daydream Charms, if anyone... I just had a few questions about how they work. If I can ask.
Thanks.
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[25 Aug 2009|06:02pm] |
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[Private]
I'm not frightening! I'm sure I'm not... I can't seriously, ACTUALLY be the only Ravenclaw to have read most of almost all of the books on the reading list, right? It's like, a couple of books a day, sometimes more depending on the book... I've only got two or three left and they're tomes, but that won't take me past the end of the new school year starting.
I CAN'T be the only one who's read these...
What does everyone else do about all that background reading? I dunno...
But I am running out of money and Daydream Charms, I'm not 'frightening' there at least
[/Private]
Would anyone be interested in tutoring/some kind of homework-doing thing once we're back in school?
14 sickles per paper, depending on the length of the paper
or
1 galleon per hour tutoring.
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[05 Aug 2009|09:23pm] |
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[warded to G&F Weasley]
These things are easier than owls.
Is there some kind of buy in bulk deal on those Daydream Charm things? If not, could I get a couple more please?
Thank you.
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[01 Aug 2009|10:40pm] |
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[Private] So wow, being at home after getting O in all my OWLS isn't as bad as I thought it would be... it's worse. Spending my time at home staying out of my mother's way, avoiding the kids in the neighbourhood, so I'm pretty much just staying in my room watching crap on TV and listening to music.
My. brain. is. atrophying.
Not long now 'til September... I suppose... at least I've got my booklist now, I can get a headstart on all my reading.
[/Private]
I can't wait to get back to Hogwarts.
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